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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Oct 10, 2005 15:05:42 GMT -7
A place to store all these extra thoughts that wind up homeless, caught, euthanized and buried in lost memory. A place to strrrretch out, sharpen your claws, slap some thoughts around. Any and every old thing stashed here under the rug, into the blog. About Shade or outside Shade. Diaries from me or about me, lol. How I see the world, how the world sees me, and where they sometimes agree. Currently, I'm 5/7ths thru the Chronicles of Narnia and rushing thru so I can get onto a couple of new Tolkien books I just got. Hail Aslan! Narnian books are blazed through at about 4 - 6 hours each. Stephen King books are killed off in a day of steady reading. Anne Rice will be savored bite by bite for a week. Comic books are read so repeatedly the ink stains my eyeballs. ...looks up and smiles with XMEN logo printed on his cornea... So tonight I g t work, but accompanying me will be Prince Rilian, and the Emerald Witch, and here I've only packed enough lunch for Me and the invisible BarnCat catjester who keeps stealing the cornchips.
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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Oct 10, 2005 16:18:18 GMT -7
Raiven's intro to this section has me thinking, IC or OOC. And I'm thinking that's where alot of Shade is not doing too good. Is this person In Character, or is he a real åßߪø¬´in real life? Am I Out of character when I say so and so, or would it be the ________ him/herself? I read and write some of the weirdest stuff on that board. I can see where the confusion might come in. You're thinking the IC or OOC debate in your head and might not even realize it. You might think omg, this guy is so dead the minute he logs into Shade, or omg the minute this guy logs into Shade I'm logged out or 'ported back to town. That might be true, but that's IC in character. The Shade Board hasn't set up a system or guideline for anyone to differentiate between the two. And there almost needs to be. Fantasy and Reality unfortunately have to be divided, for clarity. Some people are so firmly grounded IC that Onboard or Ingame, they can take and give actions and reactions their character warrants with casual ease. Some folks are more comfortable Onboard or Ingame as themselves OOC, and sometimes that's boring, irritating, bitchy, and so on that if that was your IC Character self? Pretty sad. A little more creativity. Not everyone's this bad, folks can bring alot of themselves into Shade and it works awesomely, fur better or worse, it least it works. Drama happens alot right between IC and OOC, the friction between the two is a catalyst for alot of bullߪþ past and present. Someone un-named and anonymous comes in as a character rarely or never seen in Shade to attack or accuse or assume on someone else. Someone else totally IC makes statements IC that offend real life players who don't have their head "in the game" enough to not be so personally involved. I myself have stood back hackles raised at some of the macho strutting and bloodletting, gutting and posturing way back, but now I just gotta assume that's done IC for the benefit of the doubt. Their benefit, my doubt. Me, I post alittle of each, I'm me, I'm the Catcritter, I'm mixed blended intertwined. I like that air of mystery, it sometimes doesn't do me alot of good, but the being of it all makes up for it. I Lettered in Theatre in Highschool and have been a Ham ever since I could walk and talk. It's a real large part of me. That's why Role Playing Games like Shade got me by the brains. I can bring a Role, into a Game, and Play as it. My character's probably more thought out and themed than the average slapped together stack of tweaked stats walking around out there. My spells, my subs, and even some of my gear are themed on my character or something he's currently about. Alot of what I do and say in Shade can't be made sense of, but I play a whacky character, so that gives me a bit of leeway. See the careful craftmanship that went into that? My character will let me operate, and I'm set up to operate this character. It's a working cellphone symbiosis. It'd be great if everyone could enjoy their own character, and interact on fantastic levels with other characters with their 3rd dimensional brain being able to go with that flow, or be necessarily real when the occasion calls for it. Grimm's last lines at teh bottom of the TID screen "You worked hard for your chracter. Guard it carefully." realy stuck out to me after all this more recent transfer deal I went through. Well Me and/or The Barncat have rambled on long enough, but now it's time for this guy in the security guard uniform who discovered online cellphone gaming while goofing around on the job, to get his shoes and hat on so he can get to work on time and goof around. Seeya in Shade!
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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Oct 11, 2005 14:59:42 GMT -7
"To the Fall of WAP/VZW?" On the WGR Board there's a thread called "is WAP F*cking dead?" I'm starting to think, if it isn't, it's on the way out, at least for Verizon. Dying, slowly, frustratingly slow. Just enough for the illusion of playability, but not enough to set the mind at ease. That nobody else seems to know why alot of this happens is why I'm guessing. Seems we have an increase in server difficulties lately, freeze ups, shut offs, stop do not use reload when we all know damn well we didn't use it. The phone squeeks and creaks with whiteknuckle tension as we once again shake a frozen screen in helpless frustration as our character is beaten on unmercifully, and we're let in, dead, or very near death. That's real fun, especially if it happens alot, fun fun, I love it, thank golly I am spared the trouble of surviving, succeeding and levelling in Shade. I'm gonna be a ChatRat, call me an Npc, who's occasionaly "World-Curious", I could be a Communication Nexus, a Clan Herald, or yes, constantly dead, lol. If I'm to be in Shade, this is my capacity. The minute I hear of Brew Java Shade coming to Verizon though, seeya. And let's HOPE the service and connection is better there. Honestly if it wasn't for the Players and the Potential Shade has in it, I'd have faded from the scene long ago. Waaay back when I led {ORC} in LOTR a Clanmember told me of something called Shade and told me I should play it. I said no, the Clan needs me here, and I'm LOTR-loyal. After both the Clan and warm feelings for Middle-Earth faded I made the journey on over to Shade. But that's old history by now. Warm feelings for Shade are still there, but each new jagged ridge in the road is a flicker in that warmth. Paranoia says forces conspire to get rid of me, forces are cahooting to keep me there, the abstract intangible forces that one blames for seemingly outrageous events. Poor and strangely timed phone issues, patterns, an almost deliberate intent. I don't know what to think, I try not to. Am I satisfied with my current cellular carrier, Can you Hear me Now? Kinda, the pricing's great and affordability's a big issue with me, it performs well in just about every aspect but one, CosmicInfinity. Technology pushes us forward, progress racing itself, one aspect of technology outraces another, friction, tectonic slippage and boom, we're seperated. Our devices and our programs no longer work so well together. What do we do? We Adapt!
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Post by RAIVEN on Oct 11, 2005 15:42:59 GMT -7
I got some comments but not enough time right now.. #shine2# #shine2#
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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Oct 11, 2005 16:26:30 GMT -7
Whenever ya wanna, just scratch it up here, I got a few more topics brewing in my skullshaped neckmounted coffeepot, but they can wait for awhile.
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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Oct 12, 2005 4:15:57 GMT -7
Look up: sarcoidosis: sarcoidosis A noun 1 sarcoidosis a chronic disease of unknown cause marked by the formation of nodules in the lungs and liver and lymph glands and salivary glands It's not the salivary glands, lol, so far it shows up as being in the upper lungs, and some skin stuff. It's all new to me and totally new to the medical community. It's causeless and cureless. Also avoid sunlight, and dietary vitamin D, some other stuff. No bright lights and no food after midnight? What is this Mogwai Disease? Well, this explains the basics. I don't want prayers threads, pity posts, etc, for me the Shade Board and Shade is me role playing in Shade. {I have my own websiteto whine on, lol} As for why I sleep at day, play at night, have "alot of time on my hands", my enforced schedule is explained. I've adjusted to this life and lifestyle as well as one can. The DarkSide is my home now. It works for me, and is my comfort. Lotta days I feel pretty "undead" anyways, finding myself wishing they had nightshade in real life. Sunglasses are a necessity. Shade, wherever I can find it. {the one on the phone doesn't help much, but its also nice to have around} Too much of the bright stuff and I feel tired, flu-like, downright nauseated. I come from a family of "nightsiders" anyway, so that blue sky and vibrant colored busy world of day is not much missed. My ideal room in a house would be dark, refridgerated, quiet and mine all mine. I really do see the merits of a coffin, and call me eccentric, but I think I would love to at least try sleeping in one. Practicality and kinda embracing these circumstances in a fun way. It's a good thing I'm such a fan of vampire lore, I'm going to be spending an indefinite amount of time into my life future living as one. Most folks in this hip cultured college town know the Goth thing as a fad, a fashion, a clique or something. I smile to myself cynically, but self effacing I guess, fancying myself an original among them, but outside of them. I'm real selfconscious out in the public eye, feels like all eyes are on me, I feel like that something different can be sensed about me. At best I hope they're uncomfortable, because it's not my problem. Sure I'm probably psychologically not too well off either, but it could always be worse. Wel, I don't expect understanding from this, but those of you here who deeply understand the dark might have some perspective into some of this. These eyes will throb and water in daylight, but at night I see so much. Daytime, my mind is foggy and maybe a little on the defensive, night mercifully is clear thinking and even some confidence. What else can I say here, what else Should be said here? It's a BLOG, but still it's Shade, it could be some of my chracter, but then it's a bit of that edgy real life stuff too. I forgot alot of what it might be like on the outside looking in. Maybe I'm being overthinky and a bit vague on this, but not alot of blogs make sense, so in my opinion I have this liberty. In relation to Shade, sure why doesn't he just go get one of those top of the line phones? Two words, medical bills, lol. Though I can't realy tell most times if I'm a patient or a study, a project or something. Maybe my doc is a little out of touch, and thats bad coming from me, but he seems way too fascinated and delighted for my comfort. Sometimes I have an excellent aware sense of smell, sometimes my sinuses are plugged and burn with irritation. Sometimes ache, here and there, all over, joints muscles you name it, other times I feel so full of vitality I wanna lift weights and exercise and stretch til every last tight pop clicks outta me. So, yes, good days and bad days, everyone has them, mine are just of a different type. I try to have alot of good days, and happy as hell when I'm successful at this. There's not much more to say really. I think I pretty much covered the basic version. Further study would require further study, and that's for the curious and interested. Not everyone is. There's so much more to talk about, other topics to detail, some of those I'll be covering here. But now that this is out of the way, I can totally go on to other things. Guess I was doing a little introspecting, putting it into perspective for myself and the people I imagine wondering about this. One of these days I'll be out in the sun for as long as want to be, and actually want to be in it a long time, soaking in the rays I used to love feeling, instead of dreading, and really really hating, but until then I guess my place is night, darkness and Shade. Thanks for listening/reading, chaotic friends, lol, dark family. Starting to get light outside, what timing, ugh, better get one last cigar in and call that a day. Happy Shading!
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Post by RAIVEN on Oct 12, 2005 8:56:51 GMT -7
Thank you for the personal insight and although you did not ask for prayers I am posting one here for you to remember and when things get bad, just read it and chuckle a little, #Q_DANC1#
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Post by RAIVEN on Oct 12, 2005 9:31:01 GMT -7
The comments I want to make are in regard to in game actions as opposed to real world actions.
It is my opinion that any actions or opinions that your character makes in the game should be considered 'in character' actions even if they represent what you believe and do in the real world.
Real world actions should be considered out of character actions for the most part.
If I write a third person story I should be considered the narrator and 'outside' of the story and out of character. A first person story is always in character of course.
For instance giving someone from an enemy clan a gift in the game could be considered treason because it is an in game action. Ok, so you say, "he is my friend!!!" You must consider whether he is an in game friend or real life friend. A real life friend you can give gifts to in real life. If they are your enemy in the game you should have at the very least a neutral stance towards them or do not stay in warring clans. But if you want to be enemies in the game and it is conceivable that friends could play that scenario, you really have to watch your in game actions so they are not misconstrued. For instance, hockey is a hard hitting game with lots of rivalries, yet friends play on opposing sides. Do you think that your friend on the other team is going to pass you the puck and wink??? Hardly. He will probably be on your ass twice as hard.
Ok..that's it for now. #shine2#
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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Oct 12, 2005 15:53:01 GMT -7
There's that Distinction, and in fact, at least in MECH and Bots2, some of my best enemies were good real-life friends, or at least well-stomped acquaintances, lol. But alot of people do count on that Distinction, to plan their own actions around, or broader scope role applications.
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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Oct 12, 2005 16:49:01 GMT -7
Thing with real life friends, as game enemies is ya KNOW they aint gonna whine about getting their skulls handed to them. I laughed my åßß off when I caught friendly fire from RAIVEN in mid teleport. See I took the damage, but Zanden had already approved my pass so I faded out snickering like a cheschire cat. An Ideal enemy, like em or not, is in the Understanding that it is a game, you win with humility, lose with dignity, and everyone comes out of it keeping the feeling it was a game still.
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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Oct 14, 2005 1:58:24 GMT -7
Haaaalignment! I don't consider it a characteristical inconsistency that I went from Neutral to Dark anymore than I can say all that five times fast. Why was I Neutral? Sheesh. I was tired of the With us or Against us crowd. LOTR had alot to do with that. I was slaughtered so fast an frequently that it made a blender seem like a leisurely spin in a comfy jar. I was tired of Sides. I was no good at Evading and Stealth and was an easy target. Sure I got real good at running and hiding but that came later. Learning more and more tricks on that and other things is what makes the game more fun once you depersonalize it. ...pours a cup of coffee, ponders... Ok, Neutrality, yes, well after a few months in Shade I found myself in good company! Neutrals, and the philosophies of me and the neutral leader met on so many levels. ULtimately I learned if you dont Start nothing there won't Be nothing. There are things out of control there, but those things have to initiate themselves, and that takes more wrk than alot of them wanted to put forth. We had the respect of soem of Shade's more powerful clans, and for awhile both alignments. But them's those things out of the sphere of contrl again. Opinion! Assumptions. The Dark knew where I was, the Light knew too, or did they? The big picture was that by default we got alogn way better with those who could play Shade as a game, not as a soapbox for personal beliefs and podium for self annointed righteousness. So, nowadays I chose a side or the side chose me, hard to tell realy, chicken adn the egg, which came first? Eggs, Eggs were being hatched way before Chickens tumbled down the evolutionary ladder. In the beginning before chickens and eggs all was darkness, Religion and Shade though, that's for another blog entry entirely. I'm here to define my stance. I'm not defending it, I'm defining it. So, I started really shaking stuff up in Shade as a DieHard Neutral Follower of Zanden. Grimm made the rules, Chaos gave us monsters to grow strong against, but who of them bailed my silly åßß out of the situations both caused more, Lord Zanden. In a way, I still do believe Zanden can still yet be a force to be reckoned with in Shade. But I serve Chaos, {EGO}, and the family of Darkness. What in me encouraged Neutrality before, shifted, I call it Character Evolution. I care Less about some things and care More about others. Who knos what the future holds for me and alignment in Shade? It's a big deal sure, but I'll burn that bridge when I get there. In four games on this cellphone's online gaming section I was four different alignments. At that time in one game I was Neutral, you know the one. In another I was good, not noble, not even very heroic, just good spirited, I and my like were so focussed on progressing the game as heroes in it, we were good. In another game I would sooner destroy you as look at you, you were my prey there, target, you existed to fall at my feet as scrap metal. I'd decimate you or die with dignity, but the battle was what I lived fr and roamed the entire landscape seeking. Now the fourth game, this is hard to put into alignments as its everyone fighting everyone. Might have been the truest neutral of all, not caring about anyone but me and my wins slot. Might have been the most evil, mercilessly putting losers in their place sometimes because I didnt like their names. Might have been kinda good because I rarely challenged and gave my opponent a fighting change, striking lightly at first and mirroring their moves from then after thru the battle. Coulda been toying with the target too, lol. I cuold probably play as any alignment, but thru it all which one alignment has judged the least, been the best of friends, accepted me as I am, and I am, and I am in those ways etc, lol. They might serve Chaos, but whats my mindset, Chaos. My thoughts are ajumble, my actions unpredictable, my reputation chaotical. I serve Chaos, I AM Chaos. Chaos as an idea, an ideal, an abstract and an ingame figure. All of the above. Even after this clan grows weary of me and gives me my sword of remorse, if that happens, I'll probably still be Chaotic, no matter the Alignment.
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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Nov 23, 2005 6:29:33 GMT -7
On Being a Shade Exile: Judging from this post I'd say I was somehow able to get back onto Knights Errant, no telling how long this'll last or how frequent this'll be, so I'll try to compress and summarize this newest datadump of mental surplus. Silent on the board, the posts fewer and fewer, less to say as there is less to do. Nothing to say as I have nothing to do, No Shade Played, no words made. To some this is a relief, good fr you, chance and fortune declared you winners due to technical glorbiloobinisms on Verizon's part. To some this is seen as a loss, Believe me I've tried t stay on Shade, and I have, even logner than realistically technically possible, bent time, warped reality, but it snapped back on me. I'm in other realms now, taking what Shade and LOTR taught me and "takin it to the streets". FfffffI promised myself quietly I wouldnt get depressed about this either. A Game is just a Game but you guys Made that game forme. Grimm and Chaos and Zanden run it, but you guys added the color to the artwork of Shade. Hell those friends and those I wouldnt throw up on if your åßß was on fire, I'll miss ya all, you nutcases. Grimm said it was unfortunate this calculating move on Verizon's part to edge its customers into more profitable games but says he's hoping to have Brew Shade launched there soon. I think he has a real good chance, Get It Now's BREW selection sports NONE absolutely no multiplayer content. It's a very lonely venture into the streamlined realm of colored brew action, but one day who knows, Verizon will see Shade revolutionize it, and a furrious chatterbox of a nutcase Shade Warrior named BarnCat heading the first wave into a brave and bold new world of possibility. I hope to see you all there! SO ya might be asking what does this leave me? YOu are't asking this? Shoot, ask it, go ahead, out loud or in your head, ask. Neat I almost Heard that! ThAnKs! And in answer, well thsi cat's exploring this 2.0 browsers aspects, lettting it justify it's intrusivive and forced presence in my online cellphone life, and there are some nice aspects to it. It's not my old simplstic monochrome pixelated chunky funky kukakukachoonky old reality, but I guess I have to get used to it. I was lost my first cellphone my Nokia 3589i and I'll be lost in this LGvx6100 for awhie too I guess. {This is only my 3rd cellphone, my second being a brief messy episode in slow and stupid realm with a Samsung a650} NOW! Now, people keep saying oh just get this phone or oh just switch to this telephone company and I want people to pass on this message because it's an explanation adn I'm tired of repeating myself. I cannot afford it. Money does not grow on trees in my region of life. I have medical bills that could buy half the members on this board brand new cars, I have debts from practically filleting myself and tossing those pieces to the sharks whiel I try to keep my head above water. {no offense towards sharks, some of my best friends are sharks, lol} We scrape and scrabble and scramble a month by month state of being preying for a brighter time, darker days, and all. To clarify I am NOT wHiNiNg! I'm telling all this because I wanna stop seeing people say Oh just get a computer - webtv sucks, Oh just get get a better telephone/company - easy as that. Right, lol sure. I'll get right on that, seeya in Shade in a few frikkin yrs, lol, funnay. {It's a Blog, I'm Ranting, not angry, just blasting out a few salvos of saved up fertilizer, DUCK!} I know I'll probably never get to play alongside some of ya ever again, as Brew will seperate us all by costs and capabilities, but I want you guys ta know I did want to, just the time was taken for granted, and the time was cut short. Those of you I did Shade alongside, if only just to stand there several refreshes while we follow up on some kooky plan that a percentage of the time advances the game a bit further, it was real. Shade Legends. Some of you have Levels, but levels can be gotten anywhere. Some of you had freinds, but those can be won by popularity contests. Some of you were there from teh start, but that was determined by the luck of being able to Get in first, and stay in longest. Out of all those, no matter the levels, lengths and legendries, I'm gonna miss most you Interesting people! Not just PLayers, but Characters! You play a Role, you can damn sure Play, and you Know it's Just a Game! Different Ethics and Alignments, sure, but ya got integrity, no matter the color of your underwear. HOlay molay I've rambled again, but still have I missed anything? Hehhmmm, well, I'll be around, occasionally on the board, religiously, which means I might be on just once a week, like Sunday, BOW TO ME, but I'm reachable, some have my email, some have my text/phone#, all have my Chatlink. So, in case I can't get back on, immediately, I just wanted to say all this and let my case, cards erh soemthing out on the table, I might not be playing with a full deck, but damn I'm gonna miss all you jokers, lol. Unless a miracle happens and I get back in somehow, I won't be eating my words at least.
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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Nov 25, 2005 0:56:07 GMT -7
OK, gue$$ this demand$ a part 2. On WHY I'm a $hade Exile! Money plain and $imple, ca$h, lack of $ufficient fund$. It's been a $crewed up few year$. If it weren't for $hade and other cellphone game$ I'd have gone way nut$ by now, rever$ely if it weren't for tho$e place$ I might not be quite A$ nut$ now, who know$, lol. Mu$t be a good kinda nut$ otherwi$e I wouldnt even wanna return. Okay Fir$t off I wa$ diagno$ned with a fluke di$ea$e called $arcoido$i$, but we've covered that already. But the$e thing$ have to happen in clump$ don't they? My $ignificant other contract$ Cancer, I won't explain what type, it"$ ju$t the type women her age are mo$t prone to, yep, that pair. $o the $urgerie$ involved and the recon$tructive work done {She'd been wanting an upgrade for year$, I told her I liked her a$ i$, but ultimately fate decide$ the$e thing$ I gue$$} talk about pricey inflation. $o that and my ho$pital $tay$ add up in the thou$and$. And then the cruel joke of occurence$ gives my cat, my only $on {be$ide$ Pinkaroo} a urinary tract infection. No chance in hell I wa$ letting him die then putting him to $leep, he's the clo$e$t thing I'll probably ever have to a child, having rai$ed him from birth. {He doe$nt even recognize hi$ own mother! I'm the parent.} So that end$ up adding more zero$ to the hundred$ thou$and$ etc. Only thing healthy in thi$ hou$ehold i$ the damn retarded white cat, and $he'$ been mentally $tunted from the $tart, but ther ya have$ it, the medical matter$. In$anely ridiculou$ helli$h $ituation, too traumatic to be true, hence why I don't even get into it, $hade Board or anywhere el$e for that matter. $o you'll forgive me if I $eem to lack pity for ju$t anyone el$e. I u$ed it all up on my$elf. Living to die, dying to live. Thi$ i$ the kind of life that $eperate$ us from "normal". {I $ee other people in the out$ide world, I envy them, I re$ent them, and I even $ometime$ Hate them, but I remind$ my$elf that wi$hing ill on anyone el$e won't help me any.} But that$ that. Now, the Phone$! Fir$t wa$ my tru$ty little dino$aur, the Nokia 3589i. It opened up a whole new world or 2 or 3 or 4 or more. It died. $imply refu$ed to pick up a $ignal anymore. "$earching for $ervice" {but then let'$ face it, who i$n't? lol} $o ideal timing becau$e I wa$ then eligible for a phone exchange, and $hock of $hock$, they don't make that many phone$ anymore than can acce$$ the Mobile Web 1.0, where u$ Verizon Cu$tomer$ recieve our $hade/LOTR/Mech/Bot$2 from. So I a$ked what did! The $am$ung a650, bought it. It wa$ $low, it $ucked, and lo$t $ignal $o much playing wa$ di$couraging at be$t. I traded that piece of $#!+ in $0 fa$t it'$ keypad $pun. Miraculou$ly, the LGvx6100, normally $porting the 2.0 brow$er, had $omehow through a fluke of data tran$fer retained it'$ 1.0 programming. $o I traded phone$ with my $pou$e to be able to $tay in $hade. {Character tran$fer #2, the record time one} I wa$ $low, but I wa$ at lea$t able to Chat and before $y$tem degradation and amount$ of player$ affected my $peed dangerou$ly I wa$ content with troll$ Ogre$ and Orc $laughter$. The fateful day came, Pinkaaa can bear witne$$ to thi$ one, but I got up the gut$ to try an a$$i$ted trip to al'Rak. I ju$t wanted to make it to level 13, beyond that... whatever. {Btw Pink ha$ full permi$$ion to po$t the complete tran$cript, more or le$$ editted, of the volcano trip and my la$t action heroi$m$ in $hade} Level 3 of the Volcano I logged otu to allowed Pink to Bait and Clear the way for a run to the ladder up north, I wa$ in the narrow corridor $outh of the hallway up then ea$t to the ladder. Dream$ of Black Pearl, Golden Baron, Golden Touch, Twi$t, noting item de$cription$ for Crom'$ thread, vandalizing Chatroom$, and being able to $ay I wa$ at Bal'Rak, $o with a clean con$cience and integrity I could BUY tho$e thing$! I even had hoped to live at Bal'Rak, if po$$ible, $aving up and collecting up on full $ets of each element $old there. "HTTP Error 403: Ace$$ Denied" WTF!?! I me$$aged Pink on M$N $aying I can't get back in, and in the end $he had to port out and $ugge$ted I do the $ame upon re-entry. The mi$$ion wa$ a $crub.., I called VZW Cu$tomer $ervice the next morning and a$ked what the deal wa$ they said the 1.0 brow$er on the phone wa$ experiencing $ome incon$intencie$ in $ynching up to the phone it$elf. Fine, re$igned I $ent my$elf on my merry way right on outta 1.0. My ace in the hole, LOTR: Middle-Earth War wa$ at lea$t $till playable right? Nope. "403: Acce$$ Denied" The explanation for thi$ one wa$ I needed the "03" $oftware put in, free of charge. I went intot he Verizon $tore here and a$ked for it, turn$ out I already HAD it! VZW Tech $ervice$ lied to me, a$ they might have lied before. The punchline to all thi$ i$ bluntly and hone$tly laid out to me by an unu$ually candid counterper$on "Verizon doe$n't want cu$tomer$ playing the free game$" PLAY the Get It Now, BREW Game$, like what $hade promi$e$ to one day be. It'$ not there yet, but when it arrive$, it'll be a hit. It'll be the only multiplayer game on the li$t$, I know... I've checked! It'$ what I do now. I make the be$t of a $crewy $ituation, and I'm damn good at it. I've had to be. Thi$ life i$ not for weakling$, thi$ wallet i$ not huge, thi$ phone i$ not the be$t money can buy, but I don't have the be$t money anyway$, so goodbuy!, lol. {Ha$ anyone gotten tired of $eeing all the$e dollar $igns yet? I tellya I can never $ee enough! Count the S's that made it through my careful editting proce$$ for a bonafide true blue No-Prize!} Later $Hader$!
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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Feb 7, 2007 14:06:32 GMT -7
I gotta put this here as this is the only site Dialup's letting me get to and it's long overdue for an update anyways, but first a words from Eaglex1: E-mail message Subject: My character Hi there, {Hello.} What has happened? {Which what?} I think i lost my character on both shade and lotr! {Ah ç®å¶} I dont have the tid number for either place. {And kept telling her t write those down.} I just logged like i normally do. I never read all that stuff at the beginning so i just kept pushing the button and i think it said create and now im level 1 with no weapons and no gold. {Shade Happens?} Im on the verge of tears. To quote a movie, "Help me Obi-Wan Kenobi you are my ONLY hope". {I realy hope she did not just go there lol, tears I can weather, but her actually being obi would ravage my brains in twains, doesn't help they're both from florida.} I worked so hard to get to level 10 since sept i cant do it again. {I've done itplenty of times, in lotr almost 13 characters, none of them above 10, always on the run from soem backstabbers, sociopaths.} Please see what can b done. Thank you!! {Will be referring her to cosmic feedbacks lines and all but most of what'd help would have been in her capable talons, a written down TID and such.} A very wounded Eaglex1. {Tel me about it.} And that's part of what I wake up to and I got texts and voicemails piling up I'm pretty much hamstrung t deal with all at once, cause I've got bad news fr everyone lol I have no Voice! Yes that's right, the talkative cat has lost voca transmittors. It was a cold, than a flu, a severe flu, not the player severe, but a darkomen flu, I mean well you know right? Now it's blown into pneumonia. I have a doctor's appointment today soon, and I'm real sorry these badly oddly timed phone calls can't be attended to right off. {GrUmBlE i was made of nothing but bored on my åßß nothing doing stagnant time for weeks now and just now when things get at their busiest, new work schedule very little tmie to catch my breath work shifts literally when catching my breath is a rather tricky process everyone remembers they wanna talk abuot something, lol gRuMbLe} New work schedule guarding two science vessels at once becase the client wanted to sacrifice practicality for cost effectiveness and the company thinking the customer is always right rolled over for them once again knowing it'd all be ok because if the system these geniuses cobbled together does't work well guards make great fall guys, replacable expendable yeah. Bullߪþ. But whatever. And so now wtf, this glitch? The rollback? People losin characters? Leesten oop yee hoomiez, lol I haven't had the time or energy to fully log into Shade for more than the usual pm message upkeep for several days now, I'm clear outta the loop on this one. I don't work for Cosmic I just have an official sounded voice on the phone and can spell things properly on the screen, this by no means .. uh means I'm a company man, lol. Besides, I dont play Shade I play ShadeBoard {hi-5's UnB} lol. So yeah man oh man, I just wanna gotta gotta wanna withdraw from online for a bit til this thing regularizes some. I'm expecting a final and ideal work sched, an eventual recovery from this bronchial bacterial buffet, and 50+ messages t catch up on to which my relpies will cause a Huh I don't remember what was asking you about, lol funny it seemed so urgent back then, lol can I hire a Shade Spokesmen PR Rep who I can field all my external affairs to while I am excuse me {makes hacking gooey gurgle cough noises into a nearby bucket} Mmmm cheesey with the consistency of smooth mushroom gravy lmao aherm anyways, so if anyone asks why BarnCat is be9ing antisociable or is he just plain dead, or a little of both, which is almost true but not in he way that it's easiest to jump to a conclusion about, well I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I don't know why everyone needs to talk NOW, but and I don't know why I needed t get so damn overworked and underhealthed NOW but yeah, worlds colliding worlds colliding. Ugh. This on top of sarcoidosis amplified effects flu pneumonia, shee I'd be worried but by now it's become such a fact of life I'm really past resignating about it and a que sera sera mindset is at the controls lol. But I'll be okay, just gotta let this bear of a bug snuffle and roll me around for a few more days until it's convinced I'm dead and moves on.
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Post by RAIVEN on Feb 7, 2007 15:12:38 GMT -7
Get well soon!!
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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Feb 7, 2007 18:04:51 GMT -7
And it's official! Erythromycin, more of my old friend Prednisone and a veritable beverage bottle of Hydrocod, the dr looked at me and said you're honestly not going t try going t work like this are you, was like wellll, he said nuh uh, it's time you learned about sick days big guy, here I'll write up a letter and you take this in to them. The rest is successful history, our new HRep is very humane for human resources, and so here I sit in a blue velvet robe and plaid sweats and fuzzy slippers. I cuold about purr if I wasn't feeling like hammered ߪþ. So in a bit, after some last minute must do clan leader type business restructuring an Eaglex2 and whatever else I might cop out and curl up with a Tolkien classic The Hobbit I'm near teh edn of the novel and I can't leave poor bilbo there just dangling hotly near smaug, getting crispier by the minute lol. Boy when it rains it pours though eh? Not sure I'll be able to attend to everyone's needs and it by no means defines that I'm cold callous, but I am self centered lol, I'm sick, Shade's sick. Thanks for the wellwishings everyone, let's hope all I mean ALL this clears up in a few days. As fr those leaving Shade? Bye? I won't rule out joining them at some indefinite time in the future, but yeah oh well lol. Hmmmm. Happy Hunting.
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Pitch Black
Sorcerer's Minion
All consuming, I ravage thine mind first
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Post by Pitch Black on Nov 7, 2007 17:48:04 GMT -7
wow that is alot o text. good points about ic ooc
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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Nov 7, 2007 20:36:29 GMT -7
Thanks.
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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Nov 7, 2007 22:04:05 GMT -7
Someone wanna know how aspirin and naproxen sodium and hydrocosomething taken by a dehydrated BarnCat affects him? At first it was a splitting headache, then chills, then nausea, and fatigue. But for the rest of the night a reflective clarity, details you normally overlook to shut out excess unnecessary stimuli take on interesting qualities lol the air is magic, the scenery is alive and the night is your best friend, but the possible flu you had is probably just the mundane cause. Still feeling a bit woozy, but I'm not the type to lean on calling in sick at the first sign of a purple winged bunny, ah hell no. I'm Capably Perfectle of Necforming the Percessation Functaries of the job. Nyaaah. JK, lol. I'll be spending a bit of time in Byrendell spinning my wheels plotting SoMeThInG to do in Shade to pass time until I vacate to Flash for a month and my mystical factual supernatural new Nextel phone and plan is sought, bought and brought.
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Post by BarnCatDrgN on Nov 10, 2007 22:32:21 GMT -7
Well, this week I find that another Shader has Sarcoidosis, and a warrior of some tenure and repute no less. It's a rare fluke thing, disorder and finding anyone else with it, particularly in some dinky MMWRPG calling itself Shade! I know you're curious as to who it is but I ain't telling, sorry. People's real life stuff is always a protected treasure, like the olde englishe favour, you don't just pass it along. When someone says let's just say oh I work in RL as a you nod and probably keep it to pm, when someone says ya know I've been through that trouble too you don't go Hey Everybody SoAndSo has what I got too! Nope. You'd be surprised who'll sell out your RL stuff though to get in good with the cool kids though. So never unless the most closest of friends who also already knows, discuss it. Guess ya just gotta kinda make sure you got enough on someone else before you give up much of yourself, that way they have a deterrant towards flinging your dirty laundry at the community. I have been through cliche cliche cliche sounding soooo many troubles in life that what little you hear from others still has them as quite fortunate in comparison. But I don't get into it as it'd also make for juicy gossip. Kinda nice though finding a fellowship in a kindred sufferer who sees life about the same level. The world you live in is just the creamy sweet frosting on top, a thin layer of light over shadow, but the world just to the left of your own, the one you can't or won't see is much larger and far more real. Enjoy the regular easy normalness for as long as you can though, I regret not savoring that more myself. Or I would if I could remember where normal ended and this life began to mutate. Us fell creatures get so caught up in the past and the now that the distance between changes by the minute. To wrap this up because wel even I canot type Forever, at least not without the ambition to, you never know how much people will truly understand, but never forget how much they can misunderstand when they put their minds to it. Comprehension is a choice, understanding is the truth, and yes yes I keep forgetting to try out that grape seed extract and here I was just at the mall today too lol. CATout.
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